Ever went from feeling like you’re on top of the world and ready to thrive in school or your career, only to find that you are barely surviving?
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My Favorite Takeaways From This Episode:
-Leslie’s journey from entering med school with the mindset that she has to work twice or thrice as hard as everyone else and doing, doing, doing so much just to feel like she could be average. This led her to hit a point on rotations where the pressure surmounted.
-How her hiatus from medical school led her to finally face the elephant in the room, which for her was her mental health.
-After doing therapy and working on herself, there were big unknowns of what it would be like to enter back into the medical environment.
-Leslie learned to go from essentially doing the most she possibly could to honoring her time and body, which meant doing activities that didn’t have an end goal in mind. She enjoyed walking around an outdoor mall for the sake of it or doing a 5-10 minute meditation because it felt good for her brain, and not because it was arduous task.
-There is an exercise Leslie uses to help her face challenges as a medical student, which can be applied to just about anything in life where you are feeling like an imposter and overburdened by fear of not being good enough. When she catches herself talking negatively to herself, she uses all the evidence she has from that exercise against that negative thought.
-As a Latinx medical student, Leslie talks about the importance of representation in healthcare. There’s a sense of trust, pride, and joy she expresses felt by her patients that look like her.
My Favorite Quotes From Leslie:
On imposter syndrome: “I just knew that I felt like I didn’t belong in medical school, and that I had to try 10 times harder than my peers to just be average…And I never give myself a break. Because I felt if I needed to be at least average to compare to my colleagues, then I need to do more than them.”
“And so when you’re in med school, like your mind is just like, go go, go, go go like I need to survive. You don’t have time to really address your mental health, at least you feel like you don’t have the time to address your mental health. And you feel this constant pressure and anxiety. “You enter medical school with like these ideas of like, ‘I’m going to thrive and I’m going to do well and that and that quickly changes to like, I just need to survive.’”
On emotional labor: “And it got to a point, essentially, where I felt like I had to be a different person, like, quote, unquote, on when I was on, you know, my rotations, like the cheery, happy to, like, try my absolute best to do well, and then when I would go home, I would just feel so drained.”
“Look at how many accomplishments you have? Do you think if you were a failure, or if you were an imposter, you know, you would have achieved that?”
“So every time that I would catch myself starting to go back to those kind of negative self talk, I would spot it really quickly, and then use all the evidence that I had against it against that negative thought, to remind me that I’m a badass, and that I’ve done difficult things before, that I didn’t know think you know, certain things before, but now I do. And that I can do that again.”
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Hola! I’m Erika, an occupational therapist from Miami, FL and founder of Joy Energy Time. Get to know me and hang out with me by listening to my pod, the Burnt Out to Lit Up Podcast! ✨
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